Internalized homophobia

is wanting in first person singular and hating in first person plural..

-Moss D

The Mental Dhat..

Mental Dhat: A syndrome of inexplicable mental exhaustion and a strong persistent belief that he/she is losing 'vital energy' after hours of mental masturbation (Mm). (Dr Ratheesh A) :)

All the more coz, Mm is exciting when it happens, compulsive and generally makes you feel like you have a life when it all happens. And it leaves you with the realization that the afternoon's gone. And when many such afternoons happen, you realize that deadlines have gone by and with it a part of your self esteem. Thus sets in the Dhat. Your mental energy flowing out in meaningless discourses that replace action completely making you reach the Potato-Nirvana state.

I'm sure the TV news people must be going through that after their disgustingly insensitive chicken flap-hyperactivity during the time of the bombay blasts..

Osho

New Mantra

It is ok to flirt with madness, but when madness flirts back with you, it is time to stop..

-R Mistry

An endangered lot

Blogger profile options for job descriptions/industries apparently doesn't include one for Health care/doctor/medical, let alone a medical sub specialty. We don't seem to have made a list that even includes other critically endangered species like Real Estate and Investment banking people. And Museums/Library jobs. God, how common is that? Surely we don't jut go into the category of Science.. then chemicals, biotech and engineering shouldn't have made it either. Or are we the least internet savvy of the lot.

Sigh.. I will just put myself under Marketing (the hospitals seem to be doing just that these days) or education and go to sleep contemplating a future that includes web-diagnoses and computer assisted psychotherapies..

Osho

The other side of carbon..

D-inner pangs..

The other day, I was having dinner with a friend when a huge family descended on us for a birthday celebration. Well, at a nearby table that is. A 20 ft table with families arranged along the length. Individual families merged with the others, the table too long to interact fully with each other, hierarchies of men-women and children maintained, with the individual identity and confidence best expressed in a large group. But they were all loud and seemed to be having fun.

Quite the microcosm of our large Indian families.

I guess I am dreading the social imbroglio my sister's marriage day will turn into.. More with her consent.

Osho

Purple fuzz..

Joker, the dark knight

And so, we're back after a long time (exams, profound life changes etc etc). We, as in, me and the paraphernalia that produce this blog. Not me and some voice in my head. :) Incidentally, one of the best descriptions of two people occupying a body was in fact, not related to mental illness, but about how people with brain damage relate to controlling their own bodies. 

And then I was thinking about madness, and the Joker. From the first minute of the Dark Knight, it was infuriating that they're sketched him as a man capable of apparently random acts of violence, a 'mad man'. Like a friend put it, his madness is in fact, like that of a writer. Poetic, random, breaking rules and running wild.. an Iago. Evil that exists for 'anti-social' acts alone. But such a person would rather be diagnosed with a personality disorder and not Schizophrenia. But Christopher Nolan obviously has got it confused. Or he's deliberately picked the worst of the depictions of mental illness and made a collage out of it. The flicking tongue and the scarred and painted face is just funny. 

Anyway, the sad part is that for most people, he is just an extreme form of madness. While in fact, most schizophrenics never commit violence unless threatened. And thanks to these guys, the real schizophrenics get some more stigma, and possibly increased risk of violence themselves. That apart, the other schizophrenics who're depicted to be vulnerable to suggestion to be a part of more organized crime, is probably true. If you go by all the accounts of mentally ill suicide bombers in Iraq. 

will sign off with a note that, however underhanded the technique to tickle the viewers' brain, it worked.. And the movie is quite brilliantly amusing. The earlier Jokers were probably just not worthy of comment. :) And then, a sad good bye to Heath Ledger. And no, he probably wasn't insane, but just got high on too much coke. 

Osho

My first upclose without glass screens..